Why am I so insanely fixated on completing a four year long fan fiction that was supposed to be one chapter, then two, and then was supposed to be one season? Even after it's jossed left and right in pretty much every possible way right down to its bloody fundamental PREMISE? when my family begs me regularly to write original fiction and try to get it published?

Because ... because it's... it's the first time something I wrote that so many people actually gave a DAMN ABOUT!